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It feels timely to post this, as we go through October 2025, a 1 Universal month of healing our bodies.
As a child, my parent’s dream was for me to become a doctor. I did the interviews but fell short marks-wise, and ended up studying enviro science.
Little did they know, all I wanted to be was beautiful. I was teased constantly for my flat face, skin colour, braces, acne, etc. at school and would have done anything to be blonde haired, busty and blue eyed.
My spare time was spent reading magazines. I wanted to be a columnist and model (I’m 179cm tall). I did work experience for ‘Girlfriend’ but realised this was not an acceptable career, given my family background.
Over the years I tried out to be a model and was given positive feedback but didn’t follow through. I was anxious, froze under pressure and prone to under-eating.
Soon after these photos were taken (that’s me, after being signed to Dallys), I was diagnosed with anorexia (orthorexia?) and went into therapy. Later on I figured out I’m also neurodiverse.
Despite anorexia being one of the most serious mental illnesses, people did not take me seriously when I told them my diagnosis.
Typical replies I received were…
-That’s impossible, you look great
-Geez, I wish I had that problem
-Here, have some of my fat
-You just need to eat a burger
-You’re not that thin
-I like you skinny
-There’s no such thing!
Dr Leanne Barron told me, ‘you look ok, but your internal organs could shut down anytime’ Yikes!
The costs of watching my weight were infertility*, period pain, fatigue, indigestion, constipation, poor decision-making and more (*I was afraid of being a mother/ childbirth.)
After recovering to have 3 kids and a great career, I would never go back to hurting myself like that.
True love, embraces her wobble. Doing psychic work, meditation, dancing, yoga, music + having a loving tribe have all kept me well too.
Please, don’t shrink yourself to fit a box. Be a wild orchid who blossoms beyond fear.
Cheers,
Sarah
Need help? Call 1800 33 4673 at the Butterfly Foundation
This post is dedicated to Jedi.
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